12/6 you popped up

you popped up in my dreams last night. its not the usual happy one though. I finally saw you after so long and didnt feel the energy reciprocated like you wanted to interact with me so I kept my distance and it made me really sad. especially because I thought Id always run up to you no matter what but I got really discouraged because I was in my head. ugh im glad it wasnt real but I always miss you.

I didnt send the message to you about my event but I did send out the invite. its 30% sold out! Ive almost finished one of my films and you popped up so much. I have quote a bit of scenes of you which is rightfully so. You were such apart of my life and deserve to pop up. But I wish you got to see everything. Im trying to get a grant to capture my familys stories.

I hope youre well. I hope youre loved. I hope your happy. I wish I could just sit with you. BUT SINCE YOU DONT WANT TO ITS OKAY. I just want you to habe everyrhing you want in life because you deserve it,